itsfizzah

2012-03-02T08:39:00.002+08:00

i miss them!

2012-02-24T00:24:00.006+08:00

" I may not get to see you as often as I like.
I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go."

just know that i love you baby. and i wish to always be with you till eternity. insyaAllah.

happy 20 months ahmad adil irfan . fizzah loves you with her entire heart *hugs tight*

2012-02-15T14:04:00.003+08:00

hey blog .

ive missed you. been such a long time since ive gone to this space. i wish i could tell you that l am leading a very happy life. i wish i could tell you how contented i feel right now. but truth is. i cant . cause im very much unhappy and my heart aches every single day ever since i started working at the branch 2-3 weeks ago. everyday at work i would lock myself up fr a few mins at the toilet just to let myself let it all out and then get back to work as if everything is normal.

i never felt more confuse abt my life. i dont know if i should just stay and endure cause it a great job and opportunity fr me. or i should just quit and be happy. but what if i made the wrong step and end up at another job which i dont enjoy doing? ): i love my job. i do. but i hate the environment im in. i wish i cn transfer to another branch .. but i dont have the guts to ask since im new here and obviously they are lacking of staffs. so how do i go about? do i just endure and feel like shit every single day? it feels just the same as back when i was in my year 2 poly life...all i do is try to escape and take mc tak habis2. and yes, im on mc today cause i woke up and feel super exhausted.. working mon-sat fr dont know how many weeks already. i really need a break )':

ive rant it to some people in my life. bt i doubt any of them really understood what i feel. the only time ive ever felt happy is only when i step out from that place . when i either get to meet irfan, my friends or simply just reading a book . yea, ive picked up my hobby of reading my malay novels again after so many years. thankyou irfan fr allowing me to borrow using yr card even tho u and everyone ard me knows hw i always dont return books on time! heh ! but reading has somewhat take my mind away frm all the hatred i feel fr work.

yeap. depressing. haish. its either i tahan fr 4 more months or i just quit now. what say you? haish. i wish i can talk to mum about this. bt im scared . i dont want to disappoint her. )': i hope i can just take my degree and not care about the cost. haish. i dont even know why i keep ranting, when in the end.. im just gna be stuck here again. y cant they just give me a good place with people i can relate to easily. i would stay i swear. bt as always, things have to cock up when it comes to me.

hw i wish life was easy back when i was working at sentosa with my AH team... i would fight with my parents just to go to work! imagine that. haha. it was certainly beautiful back then. people tell me its part of growing up. im a working adult now. i cant compare my work now with my work back then. but hey, hw would u feel if everyone ard u talk in a language u dont understand the entire day!!! and they talk and talk and talk with each other and laugh here and there infront of you as if you dont even exist. bring atleast ONE more malay staff PLEASEEE. im not asking fr much ! JUST ONE MORE. ass la.

i feel extremely drained out. (well, nt physically now cos im on mc and is happily eating mcspicy) bt i still feel drained out frm all the previous weeks and the many more months to go.. ya Allah....

2012-01-24T07:45:00.003+08:00

thank you awak. thank you fr accepting me fr who i am. fr loving me up till today. insyaAllah we will make it through. i love you and when i love you, i accept all of you fr who u are. i might get sad n expect too much at times bt never have i not love you. i will always still love you. you know that. thank you fr always being my sweet irfan. fr always trying to make things better fr us. to always try and make us work. you are my most awesome boyf. from day 1 till now. that hasnt changed abit. im so blessed to have you. up till now you have always protect me in any way possible, always taking care of me. always loving me. and i appreciate every single bit of that. i hope to always be the reason fr yr smile . and even if at times because of me you grew angry/sad.. insyaAllah i will always make it up to you . will always try to make you happy in the end.

happy 17th month irfan. iloveyou. (:

jommm gi dating lagi todaayyyyyyyyyy! heheheheee. *mentelllllllll*

2012-01-22T07:51:00.005+08:00

i guess after awhile in a relationship, people tend to let go of the small little things that makes everything special from the start.

2012-01-14T09:37:00.002+08:00

i miss being a teenager . i miss everything about it.

2011-12-27T01:10:00.004+08:00

baby, remember our mini getaway on my birthday? (: when u took extra good care of me. when it was just us. i love every moment of that. though it was tiring that we kept walking with heavy2 bag. hehe. but i love the fact that i can really trust u. what was i thinking when i said i wanted to throw away our beautiful relationship? i guess i still havent manage to control my feelings each time it gets hurt. but when it comes to you, each time my mind cooled down, all i can think of is to make it up with you. that no matter what obstacles we have to go through i would want to go through it together with you. cause no one has ever loved me like you do. and ive never loved any other guy like i love you. you never fail to prove that you want us to work no matter hw i always push u away when we are fighting. i love you baby. i hope we will always manage to resolve any problem that arise.

just know that you are still always my amazing boyfriend. ♥

2011-12-26T14:20:00.002+08:00

i love irfan. & that's all that matters (':

2011-12-26T11:36:00.002+08:00

2011-12-22T01:00:00.008+08:00

ahmad adil irfan is awesome (: my 20th was damn amazing cause there he was with a birthday cake lighted up just fr me, with a birthday song when it strikes midnight (': love him with all my heart. thank you fr everything baby. i am so glad i met you since day 1. i hope we wont stop loving each other. *hugs and kisses* :D

p.s i love my present :D tho you thought it was nothing much but being with you on my birthday was all that i needed. really really. (:

2011-12-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun..

my heart breaks hearing my mum cried on the phone miles away from us. She lost her youngest brother today and she was not there to see him fr the last time. I hope my mum stay strong there. i miss my family. i really do.

2011-12-13T00:14:00.002+08:00

thankyou sayang for today! thankyou fr the early birthday presents. hehe. i love the photo album so so muchhh. the only problem i had is to keep it out of reach from my fam members. haha! thankyou dearrrrrrrrrrrr. you are the best (:

strictly pancakes was great i guess! its tasty! but lucky we shared cause the serving was hugeeeeee. for us atleast . plus its super sweeeet. hahaa. cant wait fr my 20th birthday with sayang! the second time celebrating my birthday huh ;) im certain this year will be damn awesomeeee. u know i know. haha . lolllllllll.

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and i cant wait to meet the geylang girls on thursday, insyaAllah (:

baby will be back to camp tmr. TAKE CARE SAYANG! please behave while i rot slowly at home we shall webcam more in the future ok(: cant believe that after more than a year.. yesterday was the first time we actually webcam-ed -.- haha. but it was super fun! :D

and ohhh. how i miss my family so damn much.. i actually cried when i woke up today ): bleah. they have all went to the MiddleEast till 29 nov 2011. Ya Allah , keep them save always. i miss my mum and sis esp cause they are the closest to me. but i miss the rest too. i miss playing with ali muhsin ): bleah. its only me and Dad now. and abg Baqir but he's always at camp. so yea. the house feels so empty. the only good news i get from this is .. i am finally sleeping on a bed. haha.

thats all from me after a long period of hiatus. hehe. i know i havent been updating lately. but life's pretty normal lately with me. just loving my family, irfan and friends like always (: ohh and jobless like always too. haha. FIZZAH , YOU BETTER FIND A JOB BY JANUARY OK!! -.- hahaha.

SELAMAT MALAM SEMUE :D

2011-11-24T01:34:00.000+08:00

this is what dreams are made of .. (:

hey baby. i cant explain just how much i love you. how much i appreciate you . i never felt this way fr any other guy. and each time i think about you my heart kinda expand. haha. really. you are right. we are great together. so what if we sometimes argue/fight about some matters . at the end of the day we know we love each other. what are those few fights compared to the love and joy we shared each time we are together. i love you sayang. i really do. i cant think of anyone i would rather be with other than you. love you with all my heart.

happy 15th month baby. *hugstight* (:

2011-10-24T00:21:00.003+08:00

hello cute boy! (:

thankyou for being there with me through thick and thick throughout all these times. you have been the best ever. no one, really no one has ever make me feel the way you do. i love you ahmad adil irfan , i have said this to you without fail every single day since 240810. and the love gets stronger every time .

thankyou awak. thankyou for sticking with me through all the ups and downs. everyday i hope we will stay this strong and even stronger as the years goes by. i dont want to lose someone as special, sweet, adorable, patient, understanding and cute as you. i want you to know that no matter what, i will always be here for you, insyaAllah. its hard for us at times. but we will pull through just like we always do. nobody can love me better than you baby. nobody. i have never been happier with anyone else. iloveyouthemost.

happy 14th month sayang. happy 14th month of love to us. and may we be blessed with many many years down the road to eternity. insyaAllah . amin

lots of love,

cute girl :D

2011-10-21T23:19:00.001+08:00

i am in such an angsty mood now. i wish i could explain why im feeling like this. but to think about it. i dont why either. but then, why bother. i am just gonna tumblrrrrrrr all these angst away,

2011-10-16T20:53:00.002+08:00

hey everyone

havent been blogging cause i dont have that much time to do so i guess? hehe. but now im writting again cause irfan says he loves reading my blog and i loveee making him happy (: hehe

i have been missing him too much everytime . especially sunday night. heh. he is so busy .. one day i will burn that building down ): bleaaaaaaaaaaaah. i still love you syg (: but i swear im counting down the days just like you till 26 august 2012.. damnnn that loooooks really far away. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

anywaaaaaaaaaaaaay 2 weeks more and im done. alhamdulillah. i really cant wait to get over and done with. its time to stand on my own two feet. for real. hehe.

ooooh n my birthday is getting nearer .. and i super cant wait !!! HAHAHAHHAA

2011-09-10T07:00:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum semue (:

sorry my blog is super dead. my life has been too busy lately .. full of work, bf n friends! hehh.. esp work.. it basically takes majority of my time and i have to wake up super early(omggg) and im paid peanuts for that! tapi takpe .. its ok.. hidup harus bersabar.. hehe

im gna jalan raye with the geylangs later on! so excitedddd. i miss them! and its the first time me n irfan r gna go jalan raye ! last year we didnt! though we failed in finding the correct shade of green this year :p its ok awak i still love u! i knw how much effort u put in trying to find that shade tho the last one was super off!? eh? hahhaaha. main2lah! hehhh hehhh. doesnt matter ok syg! greeeeen shall it still b! i think. hahaha

aiyooo my mum wants irfan to dtg today... heheheheh. adelah nnt satu budak ni nk collect point banyak2.. eh? hahahaha

ok byeee! nk tido balik! hehe.

2011-08-30T19:45:00.001+08:00

though u love to take ugly photos of me i still love you. ahhhhh (': you are so sweet. im so glad i have u in my life. im glad you are back baby!! you have no idea hw glad i am ((: keep saying want to fetch me from work tmr cause u want choc chip cookies right :P HAHAHAHA. i knowwwwwww.

and to all my muslim friends, SELAMAT HARI RAYA! maaf zahir dan batin . ((:

2011-08-24T00:04:00.000+08:00

has it been 365 days already baby? (':

i love every bit of you irfan. i love the way you smile and laugh. i swear you are too cute(: and the way you act serious around me when you want to talk about something. and the way you tease and mrajok and everything. i love every bit of you. i really do.

i miss you alot irfan. 3 weeks away from you aint easy. bt thankyou fr being my sweetest boyf still. fizzah loves you irfan. come back quick ok. and we shall stay happy like always (:

rmb that night baby? you and me at marina barrage. that sweet video. that sweet night. (':

happy 1 year baby. i loved you back when we first started and im loving you more now. *hugs tight*

2011-08-21T23:58:00.001+08:00

hey baby ! im so excited to go to work tmr. haha. you were teasing me cause i super kanchiong till i siap my baju2 semue beforehand. tak pernaperna :P im just scared i will be sesat tmr and i might cry and took a long time to reach since theres no you :P Ad offered to help in finding the tempat but i dont even know any recognised place there. haiyaaaa. hope street directory gives me really good direction.. they better ! hehhhh.

this week has been interesting (: i went out with AH team and met huda recently after so long (: its nice to catch up with them. heheee. i even went yishun dam fr the first time to lepak there.. awak lah taknak bawak kite gi sane. mesti da dating kat sane banyak kali ngn pompan lain. rawrrrrrrr. hahahhaaa

i miss you love. i really do. i know you me to fetch you from the airport badly but haiyaaa. you know my parents :/ im only allowed to go out of the house alone after 12am if miracles happen. hehhh. but you know i still love you right. now i very excited . but i stresss. i no shoes to go work.. the one i bought like tak kene leyyy. then i no more flat shoes. takkan nk pakai heels first day. so macam paham sey like that. how?? i think i shall ceroboh my store and go find shoes. pray that kite jumpe k. HAHAHAHA. da gosok baju dah saye tadi... semangat kan. AHHAHAHA. oklah sayang. i want to join you sleep sooooon. heh hehhh. ehhhh? HAHAHAHHA.

BYEEEEEEEEEEE! 8 more days till i meet you!! *gelek pantat* but macam lameeeeeeeee je )): haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

2011-08-19T23:58:00.002+08:00

hi sayang .. i miss you so much.. today marks the forth day we havent spoken to each other. fr 10 days you have been so far from me. i still have another 9 more to go. i have no idea how to describe this feeling of mine. but all i know is i wanna hear your voice so bad. i miss that cute laughter of yours. i miss that sweet smile of yours. i miss you mentel. im missing you bad ):

even fb keep reminding me of you. haha. daaaaaaaamn. i cant wait fr your return. im sure we are gonna have awesome times together (: happyhappy just like always. ahhhhhhh. i miss you awak..

2011-08-17T22:46:00.002+08:00

im sorry i havent been blogging.

was busy studying for exams.

now its over. i should be happy right?

today is the first day you went inside hutan.. so no news at all

and i miss you like shit. )':

how like that? klua hutan cepatcepat please sayang.

i still have 12 more days to go.

only a week have passed. this sucks.

cepat lah balik )':

2011-08-14T23:58:00.001+08:00

hi budak handsome!

i had Nandos fr buke today! wooohoooo . walaupun kite tak habis.. tapi sedaaaaaaaaaaaap. walaupun pade awak tak brape sedap tapi kite tetap suke (: hahaaa. dont comment on me eating fast food each time fr buke ok :P i need it. mak is getting scared of me being anorexic. -.- so weird riggggghttt. i know i have lost quite a sum of weight these few months! but i dont diet/vomit pleaaaaaaaase. -.- maybe i should scare her even more and lose more weight. HAHA. dont want lah. people keep scolding me fr becoming so skinny already ):

anywaaaaaay ! tomorrow i promise to study fr exam k sayang. bleaaaaaaaah. so boring. nak tengok pretty little liars all over again. hahahahaa. ive got nothing much to say about today to you cause i have updated you on it on the phone (: heheeee. you know how lazy i am to blog most of the times! -.-

ohhh btw, im sorry if your phone bills gonna melambung. haiyaaaaaaaaa. tu lah awak. sape suruh jadi cute + handsome + mentel + sweet + apa2 yg sewaktu dengan nyeee. kan buat kite rindu abih nak bual lame2 dengan awakk. hehhhhh. sorrry sayang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lots of love,
BDK JAMBU (;

2011-08-13T23:51:00.003+08:00

HELOOOOOOOOOOO love. i miss you.

today kite pergi pasar dengan mak kite ! heheeee. then kite dudok rumah satu hari cause everyones out and kite taknak mak kite buke sorang... kite ingat nak buatkan awak choc chip cookies tapi mak kite belum nak start buat kuih ! hehee . lagipun kalau kite buat sekarang nanti by the time awak balik da habis punye! hehehehhehee. i will definitely make fr you ok sayang (:

awak besok 5th day.. then 15 more days... woooohoooooooo.. i can do thissssssssssssssssssss. lol.

kite happy sebab sekarang awak da boleh talk to me on the phone much longer than usual. walaupun tak sebanyak mane tapi im still glaaaaaaaad ((: syg u tc of yourself over there k! love you! byeeeeeeee (: *teringat pulak video awak* heh hehhhhhh

2011-08-12T23:58:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum syg ! (:

today i kene marah again cos i kluar malam. bleaaaaaaaah. haha. but i went geylang with adlin n meer. i ate family dinner yg macd! hehehehee. ohno! 3 days straight fast food? how like thaaaaaat?? but mum said im getting so kurus nowadays.. means can eat more right? hehehe. plus i have chempedak goreng with me now!! yg best tuuuu. yg kite happy2 makan ituari! i mintak 5 fr $2 ! orang tu kasi $5 worth of chempedak! but he kasi me pay $2 only. they say cos i wink2 at him. i didnt! he just didnt get what i was saying :P hahahaha.

baby, its getting harder to sleep every night. i would b ok when i wake up .. when i slack around .. go out and chill with my friends.. i think about you all the time.. bt it was ok cos i have company.. but when its time to sleep.. all i think about is you and i get really sad, ahhh. still have a long way to go before i can to see that cute face of yours. rawrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

"nnt irfan balik irfan jage fzh baik2 mcm slalu.. " you better :P hahaha. i love your messages these few days . cause its rare and i treasure every bit of them. heheee. sayang irfan ! <3

2011-08-11T23:58:00.002+08:00

heloooooo sayang. today i went out with yara and the guy she is super in love with. haha. she keep asking me whether he's hot? well, to me he wasnt that hot. he doesnt have smooth skin like yours. hehehee. lol. anywaaaays i ate longjohn fr buke today (: asik fast foood je. makin gemuk saye nanti. tapi awak tetap sayang kan? hehehehe. you texted me at night and i was really happy (: doesnt matter if its a few msges/ calls or what not. as long as i know you are safe there im happy . you must be really busy there, i hope things are well there. i miss you so much sayang.

oooh btw, i think i reached home at exactly 11pm? hehe. i wont break my promise ok. but when i reached home dad gave me that stare ): but yesterday i stay at home whole day what? then everybody leave me along till 11 plus at home. today i balik lambat want to scold.. *sedih*

hehhhh. oh wellllllls. u know what. i hope i can sleep tonight. i couldnt yesterday. i was already on bed around dont know what time.. bt i only fell asleep abt 2 hours later? cause i miss you and all i can think about is you esp before sleeping.. its only the 2nd day. i wish you are right here beside me. i really do.

love you irfan (:

2011-08-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

hi sayang. its day 1 today. cant wait to countdown till 20 (: hopefully it will be a fast one.. insyaAllah . i didnt do much today but laze around at home the entire day. and having headaches cause i have been staring at the comp fr too long. haha. ooooh plus abg baqir blanje me kfc for buke today. two piece chicken meal, jealous tak? jealous tak? hahahaha. now im home alone and all i can think of is you .. oh and clothes :P hahahhaa.

2 text messages and a call from you today. thankyou baby (: u havent bought your prepaid card and you called using yr phone. it must have been costly. thankyou baby fr calling me still , really appreciate it. hope to hear from you soooon. i love you sayang. i miss you so much already. *hugs* (:

oh.. mum went to melaka today baby. leaving me just like you . hahaa. i cant wait fr you to be back sayang. thankyou fr the cute card. it makes me happy just like you want me to (:

i wonder what you are doing right nowwww......... one more call pls awak?

2011-08-08T22:33:00.003+08:00

"It’s the kind of love that everyone dreams about.”

had an awesome time with you these few days baby. thankyou so much. you are definitely the best. and i am gna miss you so much for the 3 weeks you aint here in singapore. have a save trip my love. be back in one piece ok. takmu sad sad and stress stress anymore. im always here for you no matter what. we can go through all the obstacles together (: tmr is my last day with you and im gna make the best of it. just me and you baby. (: i love you so much my sweet boyfriend. i will definitely take care of myself and dont you worry, i wont do all those things you dislike k bby. i will have you in mind always. (: come back quick please. i will write to you every single day (: you too ok. *hugs & kisses* ♥

2011-08-02T13:09:00.003+08:00

hi semue (:

its the second day of puase. and im loving every minute of it. ib module is over (finally -.-) hehe. but im not done with everything still. i still have preparations to do fr Entrepreneurship Day this saturday and also i have yet to study fr RM test this friday. im scared fr ED day. i scared i will get the jitters and start stumbling around my words and end up looking like crap ): but its ok. insyaAllah semue akan berjalan dengan lancar. amin.

its one more week left before love will be going off to brunei. i dont even think about it at times. me, i always think about the present, now, today. and i presume it will hit me hard only on that day itself. heh. im gna miss him badly. that i know.

this bulan puase, i want to improve on myself. which irfan has always been trying to guide me throughout, making me a better person. thankyou love. you are the best ive ever had. i wish i had met you sooner. things would definitely be different fr me. but then again, it doesnt matter, im still glad i meet you at last (:

bulan puase makes me remember alot about when we first started. how that annoying message " belo! buke what time?" of yours which i secretly like. that shy smile i had on whenever i see you around skytower. hehh. and basically, it was one of the best moments ive had cause it was that moment of me getting close to you.

i dont ever want to be far apart from this one sweet guy i truly love. bt i have to go through this and i will be able to. cause still, that wont make me grow further away from you. never. (:

ooooh. i cant wait fr iftars with semueeeee ! heheee. selamat menyambut bulan puase semue ! (:

2011-07-24T01:16:00.003+08:00

thankyou fr Peanut, awak (: he got my eyes n your ears (; hehehehehe. cant thank you enough baby for everything you have done fr me. thankyou fr still loving this naughty gf of yours. (:

happy 11th month my mentel + manja bf. hehe. i love you awak. that hasnt change since day 1. ((:

2011-07-08T01:18:00.008+08:00

i love you baby. i want to be with you always

2011-06-30T17:10:00.004+08:00

down with fever kinda sucks cause i feel like shit but gerek in a way that i gt mc can escape from test -.- hehhh but still?

baby Ali down with flu today ): not bcos of me ! atleast i dont think so ! i am only to be 1m away from him each time! hehhhh but i always kpo2 want to be dekat2 and look at his cute face. hehe

just now i pass the wheelchair to kak inn after they send baby to doctor.. and seeing abg usop tolak-ing kak inn on the wheelchair makes me smile. heh. they so sweet can? since last time can see how absorbd abg usop is with her. everytime also with her. i doubt he even look at any other girls or even bother talking to one. hehhh. mane mau cari laki gini macam sekarang? haha

oklah. i am so pening after staring at the comp fr so long.

oh before going off,

i want to especially thank my mum fr taking extra care of me when i was down with fever. making hot chocolate, cereal.. coming to me with panadols on one hand and a glass of plain water on the other . forcing me to eat . pinching, tickling me just so i would swallow food. hehe. plus cleaning my room fr me. i love you (':

2011-06-27T11:35:00.003+08:00

hey baby, its our 10 months together. and i could never ask fr anyone better. we might have our issues but i believe we can do this . i believe in staying strong with someone whom love me back just as much as i love him. time is always against us again and again but that wont make me love u any lesser.

thankyou fr hearing my cries late at night . thankyou fr always showing you care. thankyou fr layan-ing my complains about random things tho u malas to do so! heh. i love you irfan. and i miss you so much.

thankyou fr being my amazing boy still. (':

2011-06-21T00:55:00.004+08:00

happy 21st birthday Ahmad Adil Irfan. may Allah bless you always. amin (:

i hope you enjoyed yr advanced celebration. sorry we arent able to celebrate it today since you are stuck in camp. nevertheless, happppy birthday awak! I LOVE YOU! you and only you(:

SEE YOU ON FRIDAY, sergeant ;)

2011-06-15T22:45:00.002+08:00

hello world, meet my baby nephew. aint he adorable? (': i havent got the chance to meet him yet cause he is in icu and only parents/grandparents are allowed. just need to gain a bit more weight and he is ready to go. insyaAllah (: so cuuuuuuuuuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and hensemmmmmmmmmm. hehehehe

2011-06-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

my handsome soldier(:

hi budak mentel plus manja. hehh. i miss you already ): how like that??????? how if i miss you so bad when august comes? especially on 24/8 ?? howwwwwwww? )': your gf loves you so much. extra much every single day.

thankyou awak fr always wanting to make me happy. plus gemok also. ahhahahah. i really do love you. and i will do whatever it takes to make you happy too.

xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxoxox ... sampai mampos. ehhh? hahahahahahhaha

2011-05-24T23:25:00.003+08:00

no words can describe how badly i wanna hear your voice right now. nk dengar suare si budak mentel ni. heh hehhhh. i miss you so much. takpetakpe. thursday ni u kluar hutan, i will be meeting you. dont care. then fri also i want to meet. also dont care. everyday also i want to meet you. eh? hahahahahahahhaa.

I might get upset at him sometimes, so does he. and we dont always say the right thing, but i can proudly just say- I have the best boyfriend ever. no matter how upset we are at times with each other, he always never fail to remind me just how much he loves me. and i will love him even more.

happy 9th month irfansayang. love you so much. (:

2011-05-16T00:37:00.004+08:00

you are the best thing that's ever been mine(:

thankyou hunn for the lovely food these past few days. heheee. trying to make me fat huh? hahahaha. next weekend we shall have fun at uss ! and then nur kasih the next day! yayyyyyyyyy . cant wait! heheheeee.

2011-05-14T02:17:00.002+08:00

i feel so sad suddenly. i better get some sleep and wake up happy again. heh. must be me pms-ing yet again.

“The expected is what keeps us steady. It’s the unexpected that changes our lives forever”

—	Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anantomy

2011-05-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

aishah was saying my blog so boring no pics. nah amek kau. hahahahahahahaha. so cuteee right. have tons of pics of them kat my phone. heheheheee. talking about kids, barang2 baby da sampai sey kat rumah. fuyoooooooh!

i am so sad rightttt now. my dad dont want cook for me cause he is too engrossed with his galaxy tab! pfffffft. i want the iphoneeeeee please. thankyou very naiseeeeeeeee.

So theres this boy who is the most amazing person ever. I miss him so much, every day.

2011-05-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

i sometimes wonder. when was the last time i actually had a life. the days i had back when i was working at sentosa plus able to go to dikir trainings seems so far away. its always school,tuition and work on weekdays. )': its like i dont have the time to actually go and enjoy myself like i used to. i enjoy working last time. it was like one of the best thing that happen to me, meeting my AH team (': last time was soo fun esp since i always cabot school last time. heh hehhhh. but yeaaaah. i miss every single thing. after june im gonna let something go.. well obviously not school! hehe..

i cant wait fr holidays! i will have to stop work n everything else by june/july? cause i will be having attachments by then..

LOLLL. my kakak just suddenly terbangon dari tido and ask me to put the baju2 dalam FRIDGE!! fridge kepe. lu klakar ah joy! hehehehe. i slept so much this afternoon, its so hard to fall asleep now esp in this hot hot weather. aiseymannn.

2011-05-10T21:27:00.001+08:00

my pair of uss tix arrived today! ((: wooohooooo. baik bruhhhhhh!~

2011-05-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

ahmad adil irfan is the best boyfriend everrr. couldnt ask fr anyone better (': sushi king ok sayang this sunday! heheee. plus nur kasih movie next weekend!(: hehehehehe.

met aishdot tadi setelah sekian lamanya, hehhhhh. bessssttttt. naked fish shoppe gerek! pizza hut warm choc cake very gerek! swensens rocky walnut? lagik gerek!! bahekkkkkkk. heheheheehhe (: macbeth this weekend siols! atlast watchng a lit play after so many years .. hehee

no more slacking at work allowd. sighhhhh. takpr2. shall work my ass off frm mon-fri! oh 3 days straight of tuition then work! i can do this jiayou!!!
my blog is updated just bcos ppl are complaining . eh? haahhahaahaha. fizzah skrg da bz lah. ape boleh buaaaaaat. hehehehehe.

2011-04-29T02:23:00.000+08:00

hellooooo! im blogging with my samsung wave2! at 220 am. lol. i knw i havent been blogging much just because i have other more interesting things to do. heheeee. macam p.

life has been pretty hectic eversince school starts. imagine a day of schoool and rushing off fr tuition and arriving work late after that, all sweaty . hehe. that kinda sums up my life. haha

school has been ok. tho i would still pretty much prefers waking up when my body feels like it wants to. hehee. sleeping late today just because theres no school fr me tmr!(((: until tues ! hehee. bt i still have tuition n work . sighhhhh. thats ok. neeed to earn money!

i hate waking up and being late fr school just because i have nothing to wear. zzzzzz. i need to change my wardrobe maaaan. i feel like i have pratically no proper clothes to wear. when was the last time i went shopping? 0.o zzzzzzzzzzzzzz. money pls drop frm the sky!!

oklah. mayb when boyf get his gst money tmr i shall take half of it. eh??? oh takle eh??? hahahahahaha!

oklah. nak tido! selamat malammmm!(:

2011-04-23T23:42:00.004+08:00

“As long as I am I, I can promise that I will not love another.”

love is not about how long you two been together, or how you two met, or how much drama you two had. love is about how happy you have been since he came to your life, even if it’s just for a minute. love is how fast your blood run through all over your body. love is what deep inside, love is what can’t be spoken, love is indescribable(:

happy 8th month irfan, fizzah loves you(:

2011-04-23T10:08:00.000+08:00

2011-04-21T00:25:00.004+08:00

so. i did get another tribal bag. tho i personally would love the prev one. sigh. i dont know if i love this one im getting. SIGHHHHHHHH. sucks lah. i really want the prev one. ))': nak cry... also, the one i getting not my first choice. hate it when the things i love are so popular. grrrrrrrrr. benci benci benci. ahhhhhh anything lah . hehhh.

i am actually very much tired and super drained out from club crawl.. and its only the first day. haha. daaaaaaamn. well.. long weekend awaiting fr me n bf!(: heheeee. lets bake cookies, play badminton eat texas chicken and whatnots, k irfan! heheheheeeeee. oh ohhh. im hoping irfan's sis remember to buy fr us subway from KL when she gets back on sunday. heheehhehehe. KEMPUNAN GILE PLEAAAAAAAAAAAASE. everytime lalu otw to work, air liur meleleh jee.... eh? hahahahahhahahaha.

KLAH. NAK TIDO. GOODNIGHT! TAKNAK BANGON SAMPAI JUMPE IRFAN BOLEH? EH? HEHEHEHEHHEHEE.

2011-04-20T00:02:00.003+08:00

i wanted to write down so many things. but somehow i see no point in doing so. i should just ignore every single thing and go to sleep especially since i have to reach yck mrt by 645am tmr. i wonder if i can even wake up on time. heh. maybe if i throw my hp at some corner and forget it even exist i might be able to sleep.

whatever. goodnight.

2011-04-19T00:27:00.004+08:00

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

SO ANGRY AT MYSELF!!! UGHUGHUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! )))':

i wanted that bag so badly! of all the designs bf chose this fr me. and i love it. it launced at 2pm.. i went exactly at 2pm it wasnt updated.. refresh and refresh till 203pm it was up. so i straight away order.. as i saw status still available.. and i was happy .

and now im told when i ordered it was already pending? WTF?!!!!! )': NAK NANGIS LAH SIOL. AKU NAK BAG NI. NAK BAG NI JUGAAAAAAAAAK.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! benci!!!! ):

2011-04-16T02:26:00.001+08:00

once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

2011-04-14T01:10:00.002+08:00

haiyaaaaaa. me and boyf so kental bacins. he left his hp inside my bag.. alaaaaa. how to contact then till fri ))): somemore his hp dying. i dont have the charger!! how to contact like that. alamak. kesian de mesti bored dalam camp. no movies to watch. no facebook. no messaging with me. eh? ahahahahhaa. lol -.- alaaaaa. takpe k irfan! 2 more days!!! hehe.

sat we go bake cookies and go dinner at texas chicken! hehehehee. besttttttt (:

2011-04-12T01:15:00.003+08:00

sorry havent been updating much. just plain lazy. hahaaa.

life has been quite ok, alhamdulillah(: have been really lazy tho.. always waking up late. cause i have nothing to wake up to in the morning except listening to irfan's voice. hehhehe (sorry mentel skejap) hahahaha. but yeah. work is great with raoda and fadz around(: especially today. ketawe2 with fadz sampai nak terkencing dalam seluar. -.- HAHAHAHAH

oh btw, i soooo want to get that tribal bag! i cant wait ! my hopes to get it almost crashed but was told its gonna be launced again next weeek. yayyyyyyyyy. so soooo happpy. hopefully i get the one i want! hehehehe. its so cantik can.

wanted to upload the pictures frm last weekend outing, so funnnn! (((: but the memory stick something wrong siols. haha. and now nak try lagik its with qatsier. sabar k korang, (esp aishdot! i knw u want those pics :P ) HAHAHAHA.

friday will be meetups with the gfs!(((: and its complete!! as in all of us will there.. if iz is joining.. (still pending, HAHA) hahaha. but yayyyyyyyyyyy! best nye. (:

wed got dikir training from 3pm till malam. ehehehe. club crawl or what next weeek. haiyaaaa. back to schooool sooon. idk when actually. hahahaha. but im gna get my timetable this week. one more sem. lets go! dont slack anymore k fizzah. must rmb. must succeed. make family happy. make boyfriend happy. then you get nice job then he will want to marry you. eh? (sorry mentel lagik skali) HAHAHAHHAHAHA.

k bye!!((:

2011-04-07T14:42:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum!

haiyaaaa, im in such a dilema nowadays. eh? hahahhahaa. say yes to megazip or no to megazip? and please jangan macam paham like you got it already. cume interview je ok. hahahahaha. but what about my other job? ): bleaaaaaaah.

im very hungry right now. shall go goreng nuggets. hahahaha.

maas salama! (:

2011-04-02T02:52:00.001+08:00

ada cerita tentang aku dan dia

dan kita bersama saat dulu kala.

ada cerita tentang masa yang indah

saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa.

favourite song since.. forever. heh. (':

2011-03-31T22:59:00.006+08:00

the best ive ever had(:

yayy. he finally agreed on watching lion king with me. hehehehe. i know its gonna dry our pockets out but i promise you its gonna be worth it, kay? cause its the LION KING! hehehehhh. he agreed only cause he say he wants to see me happy! ahahahaha. sooooo sweeeet. you know i am still always very happy when im with you even though there wont be no lion king.*atmost also sulk fr 1 minute cause i can never sulk fr long when im with you* HAHAA. love you sayang. hehehehehe. i cant wait for badminton session and make the nutella mug cake with you this saturday! wooohooooo! i hope it will turn out naaaaise. plus we shall watch ali baba bujang lapok online! ((: cause yours truly here so slenger bacin tak perna tengok itu crite betulbetul. hehehehehee. was quite blur when i watched the play the other day . hahahhaaa. bacin tol. plus if got time at night we shall goo.... cannot say here! hahahahah. lolll. excited much(:

"its not the years that matter in relationships just to show others that you're strong... its really about whether you're truly in ♥ and happy with the person you're with." *quoted from fb*

definitely(:

2011-03-29T13:04:00.004+08:00

budak cute tengah nyanyi sey(:

look how khusyuk budak ni nyanyi. sampai tutuptutup mate. hehehehehehehhee. things you do for me like these always makes me smile every single time . and when im bored for like example NOW -.- (hehe) i would look back at it and miss you even more. hehe. so cute lahhhhhh .

work was fun yesterday cause got frienddddddd. (: heheee. getting a hang of it since i have done it before. but the best part is, i can continue working even if sch reopens. yea(: working every daaaaaay. except wednesday cause got dikir! hehe. saye sudah ade kerje. tak akan sepokai semacam sekarang. heheee. ok best.

ok.. neeeeeeeed my beauty sleeep badly. bye. hehehe.

2011-03-27T09:21:00.001+08:00

i am craving fr soto ayam. tsk.

2011-03-24T00:02:00.004+08:00

this is for you boyfriend.

there's just a certain happiness when

things are going good with your significant other.

i feel that often when im with you. thank you irfan. always making me laugh and smile. always doing all those sweet lil things that makes me love you even more. you are one in six billions. hehehehehe. happy 7th month dearest. see you on friday!(:

2011-03-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

i am happily eating the sweets yg u know the gule2 dalam got asam that oneeeee -.- hahahaa . its one of my fav sweet! irfan bought it fr me just now cause he knw i love it.. so sweeeet. plus he make sure his gf wont almost die from starvation like just now by buying for me a whole packet of maggi mee goreng. hehehehehhehe. no wonder i love him so much. dah lah cute sweet pulak tu. ish. hahahhaha. it was nice to see him in green just now after so long.. hehehhee. so smart uh that soneoneee plus handsome somemoreeeee(: apesal ni aku nonstop nak puji matair aku ni. hahaha . -.-

and i smell a rat today. some guys are just too good to be true.. *shakes head* and nope. not talking about my dear irfan. he smells nice always (: HHAHAHAH. lolll.

cant wait to catch NP's production this coming saturday!(: plus my parents will be back on wednesdaaaaaaaay ! :D

k byeeeeeeee!

2011-03-21T01:16:00.004+08:00

kalau gadoh kene cepatcepat baik, kan sayang? (':

2011-03-20T13:11:00.000+08:00

its 1pm now. i have tuition at 5pm. 4hours.. enough time to watch hindustan? i think so tooo .. haha. -.- its all the wedding outside my block's fault.. playing all the nice2 hindustan songs. hehhhh. i feel like watching aamir khan today. hehe . lol. k bye nak tengokkkkkk!

2011-03-19T01:49:00.002+08:00

was browsing thru a friend's pics on fb when something caught my eye.. hehehehee. SITI NAFISAH BTE MOHD ALIAS.. i super know who that is. hahahahahhaa. ceyyyyyyy.. nafisah sey ;)

2011-03-14T02:48:00.002+08:00

im sorry baby. i made you bleed. all because i was so silly. should have listened to you. stupid me. ): it breaks my heart seeing that just now. bleah. im so slenger bacin nak mampos. but it was funny tho. the way i panic when nak jatuh. belo nak mampos caaaaaaan. -.-

i love you ahmad adil irfan . i really do. thankyou for talk we had just now. please rmb that, i may be sad with the situation we sometimes are stuck in. but, being with you is the best thing that has ever happened to me. you make me so happy, you know that? you always do. and thats why nothing will make us fall apart. and trust me when i say i love you. cause that means im staying no matter how hard. insyaAllah.

2011-03-12T01:45:00.007+08:00

the second one.

i miss him. every single night. i wish things would have been easier. i wish i could fly over and hug him and show him how much i miss him. like right now. he is still up working. he must be really really tired and sleepy. but as always. theres nothing we can do about this. and if thats the way its gna be.. thats the way it will be. hehhh. cmon,there are bigger problems out there, that will reduce ours to a minuscule. im refering to the earthquake & tsunami that hit japan btw. masyaAllah.. and talk about scary.

my parents have only been gone fr 1 day. and im here missing them. heh. and when they are around i always cooped myself inside my kandang. hehhh.i hope they are doing just fine there. somehow im really happy for them cause i know how much they wanted to go there (': well, on a brighter note. i masak nasi today. hehehehehehe. bukan selalu ok. and my sis goreng nugget. and we eat that fr dinner(: hehhh. oh talking about sis. i think she is too kaye ready. -.- she went to the it fair just now with qatsier and she wanted to buy this olympus pen epl2 camera which cost 1k. want to get married still so rich. hahaha. bt she is making me pay 200bucks fr it or else i cannot use. stingy! hahahaha. but i guess i dont mind plus our sony digicam da rosak. so saaaad. i loveeee that camera! oh wells.

tomorrow is picnic day with the geylang peeps! hehe. mesti best.

and oh, marinah says me n bf looks the same. AHAHHA. see irfan i told you ready. we are twins! *wriggle fingers* (:

2011-03-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

my mum so cute.. just now at 11 plus nearing 12 she came to me and started hugging me all.. and i was like.. lah bukannye mak pergi sekarang... kan kol 4.. hehehehe. i loveee my mum lah(: but its really sad though when she started saying about she is going so far away and there might be a chance that its the last time i might see her. dont scare me like that. i dont like it at all. ): have a safe trip there ok. and come back safely too. i will be good mum. janji.

2011-03-11T00:47:00.002+08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

beautiful song ♥

2011-03-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

my parents will be leaving for umrah in a few more hours. with my bro and my sis in law. so it will be just me and sis for 2 weeks. good or no good? ahahaha. i wish im still working man. gosh. i keep talking about work ): sigh...

and ooooh. i found out today. my major eyecandy back when i was in year 2 find me attractive. hehehehehehe. *blushhblushh* loll. mentelllllllllszxszxszxxxxx.

2011-03-08T20:13:00.005+08:00

im so bored. )):

lucky got storybook which love dengan baik hatinye let me pinjam (: warn him ready ah i might not return it on time ;P HAHAHAHAHA. my flu&cough is getting slightly better thanks to love again for the panadol flu. ehehhehehhehe. thankyou boyfriend. you so niceeeeeeee. always taking care of me. no wonder i loveeee you. (: hahahhaa.

well, looking at the bright side. tomorrow got dikir . and adlin and fadz will be there. ((: when was the last time i went out with those two again? hehhhhhhhh

but seriously. im so bored like shit. i keep staring at the comp till it gives me headache ):

2011-03-08T18:06:00.003+08:00

now. im even more determined to get a job. bleaaaah.

mendak siols kat rumah. sumpah tak bedek. ))):

2011-03-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

hehe. i loveeeee cats. (:

2011-03-05T22:26:00.003+08:00

-.-

2011-03-04T23:58:00.003+08:00

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

my sayang is baaack home. besok boleh jumpeeeee

*gelek pantat*

2011-03-04T23:31:00.003+08:00

i am sooo sad. i saw the jumper i wanted to buy so badly. saw the bags i wanted for ages. and they were right there infront of my eyes screaming "BUY ME! BUY ME!!" and if i was in my own dreamland i would simply take out my wallet and buy it but NOOOOOOOOO . of all time .. i had to be broke then! )': damn saaaaaad can! i need a job. harus. mesti!!

and im extra sad cause irfan didnt manage to have his nights out today. bleaaaaaaaaaah. rindu lah. takpe. 2 more days. i shalllll seeee you on monday cute boyyyyyyyyyyy! idc. ): and whereeeeeeeeee areeeee you?? i caaaaaant sleeeeeep . caaaallll me faster )))))"""":

on a brighter note, met huda darling today(: watched i am no. 4. daaaamn coool lah. syiooook. go watch ok people!! i wanna watch 127 hours next!! i waaaaant. plus i want to go and watch the lion king musical!!! aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!

BEING JOBLESS SUCKS TO THE COREEEEEE MAN.

2011-03-04T22:06:00.002+08:00

needtogetusedtothis.

maybe if i tell myself enough times i might actually getusedtoit.

2011-03-03T12:00:00.002+08:00

1) weird things you do when you are alone.

- i will start thinking theres ghosts all around me T.T

- i sometimes recall situations that happened before before and imagine how it would be like if i acted differently. haha

- i cant think of anymore right this instance. heh

ok bye! nk jumpe nana, yati n zin (:

p.s. i want that job badlyyyyyyyyy. )':

2011-03-02T23:35:00.004+08:00

this few days has been really hard. i should stop breaking down all of a sudden. i should stop feeling all empty and lost. but it has been really really hard not to. i feel so sad all the time. i feel my heart aches every single time. this pain will eventually stops right?

while walking to the bustop from adnin's house.. that long scary dark pathway .. i had some deep thoughts about life. about work. hehs.well, since i was small. i wanted to become a radio dj. second choice was to be a malay novelist. haha. now, it seems like i would be neither of them. bleaaaaaaaaah.

btw, i hope nadia will do just well for her ca. somehow, i dont care teaching her for hours straight. i just really wish she will be able to do well .. thats all. she is getting mischievous by the days! just now she literally sat on her notes cause she didnt want me to test her! hahaa. nanti pantat bisul baru tahu!

just received a call from my dearest boy. somehow until now, i havent gotten used to the fact of being far away from him. but i definitely feel so much better now after the phonecall. i hope he gets his night off on friday, i really miss him. after everything, i really need him with me right now.

i feel like doing this. since im so free during the hols...

2011-03-02T11:58:00.001+08:00

إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون

"Truly we belong to God and truly to Him shall we return"

Astaghfirullahalazim. two deaths in a week. a friend's dad passed away hours ago. it must be really really hard for the family members. indeed, life is only temporary. and as quoted by nafisah.." Funny how it seems like any normal day to the rest of the world."

i feel so empty . i feel so lost . i hope to get that job i just applied for. atleast theres something for me to do this hols. i cant wait to meet my girlfriends tmr. insyaAllah. im in need of someone to talk to. i need some cheering up to do.

2011-03-01T01:30:00.001+08:00

إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون

"Truly we belong to God and truly to Him shall we return"

i remembered when i fell down real bad and injured my knees till it was all bloody and i could almost see my flesh. afiq carried me, waited for the traffic light and even ran to the clinic.. i could feel that his hand was slipping, but he held on tight. he wouldn't let me fall. i was crying my heart out and there he was holding tight to me saying to stay strong and i was going to be just fine. he stayed with me throughout. and even came to visit me at the hospital first thing in the morning. there are just too many memories of mine with him. he was wonderful. im eternally grateful to him.

rest in peace afiq. May Allah bless your soul and give you paradise. InsyaAllah. amin.

2011-02-28T00:55:00.004+08:00

thankyou fr the adorable heart dear. so cute lah kau. eeee geram. hahahah. i love you boyfriend. you always do all these sweet stuffs fr me to show how much you love me. i better start showing my love too cause i really really do love you my sweeet sweeet boyfriend.

i loveeee you papoy!! (; hahahahaa.

you make me laugh at things that arent funny.

you make me smile without actually being here.

you make my stomach flip by a text.

you make my heart drop by just saying hi.

i hate to admit it, but you're still amazing. (:

2011-02-24T00:00:00.005+08:00

to my dearest boyf.

just got off the phone with you. do you have any idea how awfully cute you sound. hehehehhe. so sleepy yet still want to bising bising and whineeeeeeee. hahahahahaha. love you lah pantat. im missing you so much. atleast i met you fr awhile yesterday night on your night off. can you pleaaaaaaaaaaase tell them to give you night off tmr too since im done with exams by then?! pleaaaaaaase. )): hehhhh. oh wells. i guess saturday it is . bleahhh. bt its okay. i know we are stronger than this. time may be sucky for us. bt i do know we will still keep on loving each other (: insyaAllah. you have been the greatest bf to me. the only one whom managed to add meaning to the word love in my life.

“If I could explain love in one word, it would have to be trust.  Trust that he doesn’t cheat on you, trust that he doesn’t lie to  you, trust that he really likes you, trust that he will always be  there for you, trust that he can go to a party and not get high  or drunk, trust that you don’t have to worry about him breaking  up with you the second you wake up, trust that he will stick up  for you, trust that he will never fall in love with another,  trust that he won’t just get sick of you, and trust that he  wants you like you want him.”

i trust you irfan . happy 6th month my sweeeet boyfriend. mwaaaah. see you reaaal sooon(:

2011-02-19T03:10:00.000+08:00

i love you boyfriend. (:

2011-02-18T02:11:00.003+08:00

im really sad tonight. and the person i want to talk to the most doesnt want to talk to me anymore. he hates me already. great. i should just stfu and sleep. goodnight.

2011-02-18T01:35:00.004+08:00

when i was inside the room, my heart suddenly beat so fast at the sight of him. all thats running in my mind is just .. that cant be him. that cant be. that wasnt he whom used to be a part of me. that wasnt he whom used to sing like he owns the world . whom used to sing me to sleep. that wasnt he whom used to pamper me like a baby. thats not he whom i used to spend so much time with. thats not he whom i used to fight almost every single day with. thats not he whom i used to scold for being so cocky and arrogant. i know he falls sick easily. but he was supposed to grow old. )': he was supposed to get married and have kids. i know he has large dreams for himself.

i know we are almost like strangers now compared to our days back then. but it still hurts seeing you like that. it hurts seeing your parents, your family having to go through this kind of pain.

now as i flashback. i somehow could still remember everything so perfectly. that guy i called budak $3 . cause i overheard you sweet talking to the aunty at the shop infront of our school. saying with your smile she should deduct $3 from the total cost. hehs. the day you ajak me to join you guys iftar. i was wearing yellow and you with that smart jacket. i rememberd dropping my fork and making a dork out of myself . i remembered the times me you and your mum baked a cake together. cause i wanted to bake a cake specially fr my sis. heh. i remembered all our naughty days. climbing out of the window running like crazy from someone. heh. everything. the first time you gave me flowers and you bought the wrong one. you bought chrysanthemums for me on my birthday. and thats usually what people brings during funerals. heh. we even had jackets together. yours with the budak$3 at the back. while mine was kaka. i still have that sweater of yours hanging in my cupboard.. you gave it to me cause i lost mine. i still have your white adidas sweater as well. heh. i still have my moments with you written in my old blog. things might turned out ugly for us. but i have forgiven you way baaack. and i hope you forgive me for my wrongdoings too.

i hope Allah forgive all your sins. all our sins. insyaAllah. amin.

wake up. please.

love, your ex gf.

2011-02-18T00:29:00.004+08:00

im soo gonna work during march holidays. idc. k bye.

2011-02-17T01:47:00.002+08:00

woohooo. after so many years working in sentosa i finally touched that snake. HAHAHAHAH. had a nice outing day with adlin, fadz and aameer (: they loved it cause they get to go merlion, ios, skytower, songs of the sea for freee. hahahahah. we sat at tanjong beach and played aweesome card games and hopscotch! (:

i told mum about afiq, she remembered him as the guy that liked me and kept screaming my name under my blk back when i was in secondary school. old story. heh. doctor said afiq's chances of waking up is really slim. bt anything can happen right? if Allah wants to panjangkan his umur insyaAllah he will wake up. but like sis said, everyone dies eventually. you cant think just because you are young you wont suddenly die. not everyone gets to grow old and live a long life. im scared. shall go visit him with aameer tmr night insyaAllah.

i miss irfan. i have a tendency to be in a really bad mood when i miss him. haha. my baaaaaaaad. get well soon ok syg. kesian awak. ):

2011-02-16T00:40:00.004+08:00

today was awesome. met some of the geylang girls. (: love them to bits n pieces. happppy birthday again nur liyana bte shafie. loveee you my pretty pretty gf (: this year, each and everyone of us will turn 20 one by oneeee. me laaaaaast! hahahaha. but wow. we are getting older each time ): sucks growing up. but whatever still, we shall always have each others back. like nana texted, till death do us part. insyaAllah . amin(:

i miss ad n aishah. heh. it has been so long since we last hang out. i guess everything is so different right now. heh. bt i miss them. i guess its true. things shall constantly change and we have to adapt to it. everyone is growing up. we cant expect everything to be just like hw it used to be. whatever still. i miss them. period.

tomorrow is picnic day with adlin and fadz(: i cant wait. it would certainly be fun with those two. hehe. i know im supposed to be studying since its study break. hahahaha. thursday i study k. hahahahah.

my love is sick. i pity him badly. i wish i could fly over to his side and take care of him and make sure he is fine again. sayang you promised to take good care of yourself so that you will be healthy enough to take care of me, right? be strong ok. kesian awak demam. and i cant be there for you. )): i love you

btw, im in love with my blog song..

Ain't about the (ha) Ka-Ching Ka-Ching.
Ain't about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling

hahahahah! (:

2011-02-15T00:16:00.004+08:00

went to watch black swan with hakim at plaza sing. the show is really really good.. it makes me squirm on my seat. i think i kept hitting hakim cause i couldnt bear the suspense. hahhhhh. scary bodo tu crite. hahahah. theres so many good movies in the cinema now.. i waanaaa watch themmm allllllllllllllllll. and oh!!! btw, i just checkd out my weight 2 days ago and i aaaaaaaaaam 45.0kg *imsert huge grins here* hahahahha. ok its not like a big deal since im always around that weight but the fact that i felt that i might have reached 50kg ready and still am 45kg makes me a happy happy girl. hahahhaha.

anw, i hope afiq wakes up soon. it has been so long. it must be hard on his family, his gf, and friends. people are telling me i should go and visit him. i guess i will go and visit him with aameer this wed night. its scary. i dont know how i would feel if i were to see him in that kind of state. whatever it is, i still hope for the best for him. insyaAllah he will be just fine . amin.

2011-02-14T00:01:00.007+08:00

hahahaaha. i think sayang is so damn cute. he diedie say to me.. check out his blog by 1159 and i will fall even much inlove with him. hehehehhehe.

maknenek kan? hahahaha. i love you lah pantat. so much. btw your handwritting damn burok can?one day i give you writting lesson k irfan? HAHAHAH. i miss him alreaaady. takpe thursday de balik(: KO TUNGGU K IRFAN. hahahhahaha. btw, i think i know why u put it under 1159! AAHAHAHHAHAA. ko cute bodo. xoxo

my eyes have stopped searching because i can honestly say my heart has found exactly what it’s been looking for.

2011-02-13T02:41:00.000+08:00

i love us. i love today. i love eating durian with you. i love the time spent just sitting down at barrage and us conversing and conversing for hours. i love fireworks. i love you(: i dont expect people to understand us. i dont expect people to feel what we do. but thats ok i guess. cause we understand each other just about perfectly.

2011-02-11T08:34:00.002+08:00

i am feeling so depressed right nowwwwwwwww. )': my eyes are getting from bad to worst!! NOW BOTH EYES ARE DAMN BLOODY RED. HOW TO GO SCHOOL AND SUBMIT MY PROJECT )': HOW TO GO TUITION??!! i keep crying and crying and now i feel like im nt only crying cause its naturally tearing bt over my misfortune )':

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OHKAY LUCKY I HAVE WONDERFUL FRIENDS (': zin is helping me send my report to the teacher. love her sooo much caaaan??! now i can rest at home and decide if i should go fr tuition? if i do goo.. i might have to borrow sis's spectacles cause i lost minee -.- and i am sure she will be daaamn reluctant .. cause she just bought it and its damn exp.. Plus i am scared to wear too. knowing me n my clumsiness i might break that specs of hers anytime! IRFAAAAAAAAN COME OUT FROM THE JUNGLE NOW AND MEET YOUR MISERABLE GF HEREEEEE CAN? )': hailaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

2011-02-11T01:25:00.004+08:00

pervertic smile yara (HAHAHAHA) and red-eyed fizzah

spent our day ranting out boys and stupid report and schooooooool (:

mate saye sakit sekali. pedih sesangat. saye rase ramai orang mesti tengok saye macam orang bodoh dah due hari saye nangisnangis dalam train macam budak retarded. sedih siols. how to meet bf like that tmr? ): how to go for tuition? how to hand in report? how to meet adlin and go bugis? siiiiiigh. bf said if i cannot go out he will fetch me and let me rest just as long as we can still meet each other. how sweeet. i love you. but dont run away k when u see my red red eye. i am not a vampire. maybe i can be one. katrinaaaaa. hahaha. too much vampire diaries in my head. hehehe. hope tmr it will get better cause mum bought fr me EYEMO (: hehehehe. k byeeee. saye mahu continue buat report. laaaaaaaast report and done (:

2011-02-10T14:12:00.006+08:00

still super stoked from yesternight. (:

‎"I'm Taylor, I write songs about life, love and heartbreak. Love and heartbreak, love and heartbreak, love and heartbreak..."

2011-02-09T13:56:00.007+08:00

“what makes some people important is not just the feeling of happiness

when you meet them, but the pain you feel when you miss them.”

i am missing cute boy badly. i miss him yesterday. and im missing him more today. and its only wednesday): how like thaaaaaaaaat?

friday will my last submission for project, after that can chillllllllllllllllllllll. haha. NOT . got exam siols. not funny siols. benci siols. k im crapping. -.-

on the other hand. IM WATCHING TAYLOR SWIFTTT TONIGHT (Y) hehehehe. excited siols. (:

namaste bitches (;

2011-02-07T16:43:00.001+08:00

want to cry ready. got exam. got projects. no time siol. die lah . ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. DIE LAH. bacins tol.

2011-02-07T10:15:00.002+08:00

the greatest thing in life is finding someone who knows all your mistakes and differences and still finds you absolutely amazing

everyone says its just the beginning. we will soon get tired of each other just like any other couples. well, as of right now, i cant see myself ever being tired of my cute boy. cause every single time im apart from you all i wanna do is just sleep and wake up to that very day i am able to see you again. haha.

SEE YOU ON FRIDAY SAYANG!

SATAAAAAAAAAAY! hahahahahhahahaa! (:

2011-02-05T10:04:00.004+08:00

soooooo, after so long, i was back again in my orange uniform for the past two days. it was undeniably great. hehe. cause rushing out from the house to go work with ad, being back in the island , seeing some of the familiar faces, seeing all the things/people i miss, being posted to work at lookout .. makes me feel just like old times. almost. hahaa. was posted at fort the first day of cny, and my adorable cute boy teman me for quite sometime. thankyouuuuuuuu. ((: afterwhich we sat at the beach for awhile before he had to go back to skytower. i love spending time with him. it doesnt matter if its even for awhile. i just love talking, crapping, making stupid jokes with my boyf. hehe.

yesterday was quite crazy for me cause i was working at merlion. thus the never ending queue.. and my very aching leg now! hahaa. super super tired after thaaaaaaaaaaat! but that was it i guess. no more working? i dont know. but i would certainly love to if i have the time PLUS i am posted at lookout. haha. so ngade ngade. but yeah.

takpe takpe. these two days atleast i earn quite a sum of money. neeed to save money. no moneyyyy no goood fooood! hahahahha.

and oh! this wednesday , hakim is bringing me watch taylor swifttt concerttttttttttt. (Y) lu rock ah brader. sayaaang kau! ((:

nanti saye is going to eat at ramen ten with my cute boy! jeles tak? jeles tak? jeles kaaaaaaaaaaaaan. sushiiiii here i comeeeeeee. HAHAHAHA. (: k bye.

2011-02-01T08:46:00.003+08:00

my cute boy(: i so happy now can snugglesnuggle your sweater to sleeeeeep. makes me wanna sleep all day long especially in this cold weather. hehehe. love you(:

2011-01-29T10:32:00.002+08:00

i saw mubin today. and i felt complete. until i realised it was just a dream .

2011-01-27T11:56:00.004+08:00

i love my hairdo hereeeeeeee (: hehehe

been spending time at woodlands library latelyyyy. haha. belajar lah katekan. lol. though yesterday me and nana ended up watching crite hindustan on youtube. ahahahhaha. i have been eating ayam percik two days straight. yumyum! so much of dieting. nah, i have given up on dieting long ago. i cant do it. with all that good food around me. HAHAHAHAH. talking about food, im HUNGRY. wanna go check out if theres any good food in the kitchen. ciao! (:

2011-01-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

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